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Name: chinhong
Country: Malaysia
Metro: Kuala Lumpur
Birthday: 11/24/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: GIRLS!!
Drawing
Badminton
Gain all the knowledge in the world (though it's impossible)
Listen to mp3
Read comic books
Tease girls XD
Be with friends
Expertise: Do you consider doing burp sound softly as an expertise?Ok,nevermind...
I can play badminton quite well and so does drawing.
Blogging like mad
Looping MCR songs non-stop when others are merely conscious
Read comic books like mad
Flirting is my recent skill, not too bad, still ok XD
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
MSN: chad_saujanianrox@messengeruser.com
Member Since:
6/3/2005
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| SoonI cannot stand this any longer, I'm about to go hey wire if I don't rest for good. All the reading books and constant assignments, tests, pressure from the class, I'm about to burst real soon. Maybe sooner than I thought.
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| Preparing SOA Exams is Very Sickening!Alvin and I are very sick of preparing our SOA exams!
First of all, let me tell you what is SOA exams. Like ACCA exams, SOA (Society of Actuaries) exams is our professional papers. It consists of 7 papers in total, and once you pass every paper, you will officially be entitled for fellowship by SOA. If you have passed the first 5 papers, you will be an associate. Why do we need to take these papers? It's very simple, to increase our "value" in the market of course. I mean, why do you think accountants are taking ACCA exams in the first place? Actuarial Science is a very challenging course, like what I've said in previous posts. If you really want to be an actuary, getting a degree is not enough actually. Insurance companies in Malaysia are mainly targetting only first class honors Actuarial Science students, better still, students who pass some professional papers. Why do they only target first class honors Actuarial Science students? It's simply because the supply is higher than the demand, in simple English, too many actuaries but too little places for them. Besides that, aim to get a job in overseas, not Malaysia. Malaysia Insurance companies just simply have too insufficient places for too many Actuaries, at least for now. I'm not sure about what the future holds, who does right? But at least from what we see, Malaysia's market for Actuaries will be the same for at least 5 more years.
Some people say that they don't want to be an actuary after graduation, they study this course just to learn about the financial aspect that is taught in this course. For goodness sake! If you want to learn about financial, go study finance la aduh! I know la, you sure want to tell me it is not necessary to work as an Actuary in the future even though you study this course de ma. But this case is different you see, when you know specifically what you want to study, go study the subject that will focus more on it la, aduh!
I have passed my first paper, Exam P/1 four weeks ago during my last semester break. One week later, my short semester has started and it doesn't seem to be delighted because the subjects are so crazy. I will be taking my second paper, Exam Financial Mathematics on November 5. So basically, I have only approximately 9 more days to prepare my exam. I haven't had a good rest since last semester and I am so freaking tired now! Luckily I have learnt most of the stuff in Exam FM in Theory of Interest subject that was taught last semester and now I'm very frustrated with the tonnes of exercises and also some minor parts in Derivatives Market. And I'm still not even 50% prepared yet! Urghhh! Put this aside, I still have UTAR's stuff to worry about. Business Law, Statistical Simulation and MORAL are killing me! The first test is going to commence in two weeks time and that is exactly the same time I'm taking my Exam FM. This is very sickening...
On the other hand, Alvin is very stressed and tired as well. He's going to take Exam MFE (Modelling for Financial Economics) and C (donno what lai de, yet) around the same time as I take my Exam FM. He has passed the first, second and third paper. If he gao dim this two papers, he will be an associate. Damn! You are my idol man! He has been preparing for these two papers for almost half a year (one year for MFE =P) already. And because of the exam is coming near, he is basically like us, want to pia to the end. Besides, He has other things to take care, for instance, the coming UTAR IDOL 2009, which is an inter-faculty competition. He is the organizing chairman and because of this, he has grown much grey hair, ei? XD
But one thing about him is, he is giving less attention to UTAR's exam for now. Because according to him, UTAR's exam doesn't have the same weight as SOA papers.
I haven't been sleeping enough for two semester, counthing this one. I miss playing badminton, Wing Yew's back and soon, others will too. I can't wait to rest after Exam FM.
Of course, I hope to pass it.
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| Yet Another Good Work Done
This should be the official poster for the UTAR IDOL 2009 (I hope >_<). Alvin sent me the poster that he worked on for hours yesterday and asked me to help him to edit it. So I did it. I'm very happy and nonetheless, satisfied with my work. It gives out a really funky feel and I really love it. Hopefully, I can still think of something in the future to make the poster much more glossy and grand before they actually start to print the posters out.
The things I have changed:
a) I used a new set of fonts (the title and the extra information) found in the internet to give the poster a really strong feel.
b) I resized the poster. It was not originally an A4 size, much more like an A3 flipped horizontal.
c) I reallocated some of the objects in the original poster until I've made a final decision, i.e. the poster above.
d) I sharpened some of the objects in the poster to make them look more solid in the image.
e) I added some text in it.
Credits go to Alvin as well because basically, all the objects in the poster was found by him.
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| A Drawing from the Past I know, I know. I haven't been updating for at least a month. The reason was, I was busy and too happy to blog anything about my stuff, end of story. As I was (still) cleaning up my room just now, I found a secondary exercise book with my drawings inside which I drew it just right after I had my SPM. Here's the picture of one of the drawings that I snapped: 
Yes, I can see that the head is relatively smaller than the body. Give me a break, I was just 17. XD To think about it, everything has changed deliberately since I got into UTAR. I've never drawn since then, my life was driven by the hectic timetable scheduled by UTAR etc. bullshit crap that I could think of. What am I doing now? I'm pratically having my so called "holiday" and will start my classes again next Monday. Sad huh? While most of the UTARians are having three months break, I still have to attend my classes. A lot of things (as usual) happened in the past month(s). The only few things that I could still remember was passing my first professional paper, exam P and got a double kill with my UTAR exam. All my hard work paid off and I want to thank Alvin again for helping me and giving me all the reverse psychology support, hahaha! I will be having my second professional paper, exam Financial Mathematics on November 5 this year, which is approximately about 25 more days to go. I haven't studied a single thing yet and I'm very panic yet lazy right now. Ironic huh? It was as if the God is telling me to stop playing dota because whenever I try to play it, my computer would hang or colorful boxes and squares would appear on my computer screen. Somehow, it is a good thing because I'm addicted to it already. Oh ya, the other things that I still remember was hanging out with Jun-Jun Riko and Chee Phin AND celebrating Michelle's birthday. I had chili's with Jun and Chee Phin and watched the "Flight of the Living Dead" which personally was a bit pointless to me. Here's a picture of us:  
Source: http://unspokenlyrics.blogspot.com Celebrating Michelle's birthday: 
The birthday girl.
Me and Shuang
Source: http://fake-shit.blogspot.com This is a short update actually, I want to force myself to study now, ciaoz... | | |
| Goodbye...It's over, the second I wrote that entry about how much I miss you and how much I want to be with you, it's over.
All you could say is that you still cannot handle the pressure.
All you could say was that you don't like me being emo and impatient. All your friends could say about me was that I am emo, childish, mommy's boy, and they didn't like me calling you a bitch back then? Come on, I called you that for a reason, for a reason that you cheated me back then. I apologized after that, so many times. I doubt that you have defended me like how you said, I doubt that you convinced them that who I really am and not like what they thought about me. If you really like me, you will not fear of handling and facing the pressure, I have guaranteed you that my friends do not even care about you. Someone said to me, "Even Amelinda's news is fading already, why does she think something small like this would even let people bother about it?" This just proved that this person doesn't really have anything against you.
I have faith in you, all the while, to conquer your fear. What do I get in the end? "I've promised you when I am ready, you will know. I know. But I might like other guys too. Things can change, it is unfair for you to wait for me and therefore you can choose other girls as well." I really don't get you, can you even see the contradiction? Why do you even want to try your best to handle this pressure when you tell me that you might like other guys and I can choose other girls? You didn't even have the heart to remember the promise you gave me. All you remembered was the phrase that I told you in our last conversation, "Please tell me when you have a boyfriend already." I wanted you to recall what you have said in our last conversation but all you could think of was that phrase itself.
Now you telling me that I am selfish all the time? Who's the one keeping everything to herself? Could you even blame me for saying something for myself when you never told me your situation? You only take moments like this when we have to argue to tell me what's in your mind. Don't you think that is unfair for me? I've been wanting to keep in touch with you all the while in any ways. What can you tell me in msn? "I don't have anything to talk to you wor. Hehe." And I have to look for you each time and get poured cold water by you. You said I am mommy's boy because I am not independent enough. I admit that I am not independent but you know the reason. You know every single reason that you don't like about me and you still don't like it. And you would only tell me when I asked about it.
I took you for granted because each time you never told me anything in detail. You would back off when I stepped in too deep. Even this promise that you gave me, please lar....if you don't think that I am the one for you, don't simply promise anyone anything like this. You said you're scared that you will hurt me again, and that you will try your best to take each considered action so that you wouldn't hurt me in any ways. OH wow...what am I feeling now?
All in all, I think that you still don't take this into consideration deep enough. Have I demanded you to quickly decide? You told me you hate it when I ask about things like this from you, it's like giving you pressure. Oh, I forgot to ask you, "If I don't ask you, when would you tell me?!" You would love to tell me let this flow naturally, and back to what you have promised me, don't you think you took that promise for granted? I have this strong feeling that you tell me all about this contradiction is just wanted me to tell you myself to stop it at this moment. I don't freaking understand how a normal person would choose to consider a tedious thing like this while letting each one of us to fall in love for another person? I don't understand your logic at all. You always tell me that every thing that I say is as though your fault. Hey, don't you think I would think it's hard for me enough to cope with everyone's eye balls when we really be together too? Back to square one, you never told me anything in your heart, how can I say something that is so polite that wouldn't make you think everything is your fault? You know it yourself whether or not you really like me from the bottom of your heart from the statements that I have made. You couldn't even answer me when I asked you about it in MSN. And you complain about me blogging my emo stuff? Please, I've told you years ago that I only blog when I am emo and sad, and you can count how many shit entries that I have written in my blog in a year to know how many times I am sad and emo in this period. Come on! I am a normal human being, I find my blog to channel my emo. If you don't like it, don't read it for goodness sake. Why torture yourself to read people's emo stuff when you can't stand even stand yourselve being emo? Oh my god, I would appreciate if you sacrificed something for me, like seriously, time. But I wouldn't want you to sacrifice something that you don't like about me and doing so many things that contradict to yourself.
All you could say was just "Sorry, I still cannot handle this pressure." While you put all your heart in your friends and studies. I don't have my studies to worry about meh? I don't have friends to mix around meh? But I was still faithfully waiting for your reply until yesterday. You like to say "OMG...", well I like to say "OH MY GOD" too when everything you said in real person is SOOOOO much different from what you said in MSN. You told me it's because you're not good in expressing yourself. But in times like this, couldn't you make an effort to explain it more detailed? You couldn't expect that I can understand your expression in times like this.
At the end of our conversation yesterday, you said, "And so we shu end this? Right?" At that precise moment, I thought to myself that we are really wasting our time. And I really doubt that you are serious in it like what you said. Come on! If you really like me and consider about me, I don't think you would say those very words yourself! And yes, we should end this. Like what you said, and I hope it's not like what you wanted, ei?
Oh I forgot that you have your own blog too, I wonder why you would never give me when I asked from you. First I thought it was your privacy and I respected it. But now I am really curious whether do you just point your fingers to me in your blog like what I am doing now to you or for instance, write which guy among your "candidates" do you really like? WHATEVER, I don't know much about you unless you really tell something about yourself. I can't assume everything myself. Even your own close friends do not know what you are thinking. I wanted to trust you again, but now, think about it, trust you with what?
I am sure there are a lot more guys woo-ing you at this moment, and I think you enjoy it very much. If really, not many guys are trying to woo you, forgive me for being jealous sometimes when you went out alone with a guy and thinking what you are doing all the time!!!! I wanted to understand you, but you never opened your heart. So please stop saying that I don't understand you at all!!!! But anyway, I thank you for going out with me the other day and let me hug you and biting me on my arms in the cinema. It was sweet, I really felt that you loved me. But what did you say after that? "Oh, it was nothing de lar. It's ok" and I apologized for my rude behavior on that day since you didn't really feel like being together with me at all.
These are the things that are in my mind, so what's the point? If you tell me that you like me, prove it to me, I don't want verbal stuff from you. I have never forced you to make any decisions at all! So don't freaking say that I'm giving you pressure when occasionally I need a concrete reply from you to know that you are really taking this seriously.
It's too late for anything now.
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